Wow two weeks until the launch of my novel and I can’t believe I am almost there. The finish line is in sight, but of course it’s a mirage because a writer’s job is never finished and after the finish line there is still a long way to go. But I gave myself a deadline of when I wanted to launch the book but did not expect things that were just out of my control. Of course it is never perfect timing and if you are waiting for perfect timing, trust me when I say that it doesn’t exist. Especially when doing the self-publishing route. I did not expect the type of hurtles I encountered. The proof for example. I didn’t expect there to have to be so many changes to the interior design. I had to wait for three different proofs to be delivered via UPS, waiting and wanting to tear my hair out of my head… but I digress. These things happen and it’s all part of the journey and I couldn’t wait to finally say “Yes, please publish!!” And after I did that it put everything into motion.
How am I coping? Well, in addition to feeling extremely excited, I am also feeling stressed and overwhelmed. I didn’t expect my deadline to have to compete with my personal life. The book was competing with trying to sell my co-op, buying a new house, trying to keep my husband and myself from losing our minds, and attempting to salvage a social life. Not easy while still working crazy hours at my 9am-?pm job. But at the end of the day, I realize that I can’t hold back, not now when I’ve come this far.
These last two weeks prior to my upcoming book release is daunting, scary and also something I never dreamed would happen. But here I am about to put my novel out in a way that I didn’t think possible two years ago. Back then I was content with being a playwright and thinking the novel was a great idea, but only that. An idea. It takes courage and a lot of support from many incredible people to turn that idea into something great. Not only did I realize that people believed in me, I had to learn to truly believe in myself and my work. Once you realize that the only person really stopping you is yourself, then you’ve already conquered the biggest hurdle of all. And if you can cross that finish line, than you will be amazed at the possibilities. It was like when my husband crossed the finish line at the NYC Marathon. He had succeeded at running the marathon, reaching one of his lifetime goals, but then he got to share that feeling with myself and the countless friends and family that came to cheer him on all throughout the way. Here’s to all the fans, family and friends who have cheered me on all throughout the way. I couldn’t have reached this point without you.
So two more week left to go and I can’t wait for not only will it launch this amazing novel, it will truly be the start of the next chapter in my writing career. Let the countdown begin.